I have not heard from you. I thought I could cover up this month. I was kind of optimistic, because I received last medication last month. I thought I would be better by now, but realistically I did not get much better. School season has started, and I was so pushed to finish that I cannot handle it. It was highly pay, so I accepted, but I cannot do it just cannot do it. I wanted to negotiate schedule and project details, but I was harassed with e-mails and calls. I had to return it for the reputation. Some customers are good and some customers are mean. I don't want them to file a claim against me and get penalized. I don't have strong reputation yet, so getting a claim would be very damaging. I cannot risk it and ruin reputation for future business.
Like in your e-mail last month, I wanted to relax, but in my mind there is still so many worries about many things. Sometimes I feel frustrated, but once I think of you that helped me so much that I reached this far, I have to go on so that gradually that I can make it. This illness delay me and make me frustrated, but I still have to go on and even harder to make my goal of growing old with you. Please don't give up on me and thank you.