When I was five years old, I got sick. I got Kosaki. Kosaki is a very dangerous and scary disease, if serious it could cause death. At that time there is no medicine for Kosaki, and I’m very sick, my body is so weak and near death, it doesn’t look good at all. Even in such a situation that seems hopeless my mom still don’t give up, she prayed for me and asked God to heal. God listened to my mom’s prayers, and in a week’s time my sickness was gradually healed. After I got better, my mom saw from the news that many kid around four to five years old got sick because of Kosaki and died, not just a few but a few tens. At that time I’m a kid and I have no feeling, but now when my parents talked about it, I am very thankful because if it was not God’s mercy and healing, I would not have the chance to stand here and share with you my testimony.
When I was twelve years old, because I didn’t study I was assigned to the last class in the school. That year was the darkest year of my life. In my class there was a few bad boy in class, and they like to bully me. For the whole year I am being bullied by them, they break my stuff like my pencil and water bottle, hit me, insult me, framed me, provoke me, belittle me, and played me. This was not just one day or two days, but for a whole year I felt scared and terrified, it was so painful that I nearly went crazy. And slowly every day, I began to feel hatred and vengeful in my heart, an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth, I quarrel and even fight with them. Every day the feeling add up, more and more, more and more until the thought of killing them appear in my heart. I even made up my mind that when I grew up I want to kill all of these people who bullies me. Every day I imagine in my heart how I would kill them, my heart is filled with bitterness and there was no peace and joy in my heart. It was so real that it filled my entire heart, to forgive them is impossible to me.
On the next year when I was thirteen, God led me to a youth fellowship in church. In the fellowship God use the life of a big brother to change me. I felt Jesus love through him and know that trust and depend on God is so happy and able. The big brother lead me to Jesus Christ, and I accept Jesus as my one and only savior and let him take control over my life. After I accept and invite Jesus into my life, I started to change. I started to change from a person which is filled with bitterness and hatred to a person who can completely forgive my enemy and even love people. From a person who wants revenge so hard that would even thought of killing to a person who answer God’s calling and resolve to become a pastor. From very emotional and extremely bad tempered to gentle and patience; from a person without joy and hope to a person filled with joy and hope.
Knowing Jesus is the best thing in my life, I long to share this blessing with everyone around me. After that I started to serve with passion in church and share gospel with my friends. Through serving and sharing gospel I experienced many God’s grace and His presence. I willingly give my life all in front of God for Him to use, I live only for God, my life is different because of this belief!