When I was five years old, I got sick. I got Kosaki. Kosaki is a very dangerous and scary disease, if serious it could cause death. At that time there is no medicine for Kosaki, and I’m very sick, my body is so weak and near death, it doesn’t look good at all. Even in such a situation that seems hopeless my mom still don’t give up, she prayed for me and asked God to heal. God listened to my mom’s prayers, and in a week’s time my sickness was gradually healed. After I got better, my mom saw from the news that many kid around four to five years old got sick because of Kosaki and died, not just a few but a few tens. At that time I’m a kid and I have no feeling, but now when my parents talked about it, I am very thankful because if it was not God’s mercy and healing, I would not have the chance to stand here and share with you my testimony.
When I was twelve years old, because I didn’t study I was assigned to the last class in the school. That year was the darkest year of my life. In my class there was a few bad boy in class, and they like to bully me. For the whole year I am being bullied by them, they break my stuff like my pencil and water bottle, hit me, insult me, framed me, provoke me, belittle me, and played me. This was not just one day or two days, but for a whole year I felt scared and terrified, it was so painful that I nearly went crazy. And slowly every day, I began to feel hatred and vengeful in my heart, an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth, I quarrel and even fight with them. Every day the feeling add up, more and more, more and more until the thought of killing them appear in my heart. I even made up my mind that when I grew up I want to kill all of these people who bullies me. Every day I imagine in my heart how I would kill them, my heart is filled with bitterness and there was no peace and joy in my heart. It was so real that it filled my entire heart, to forgive them is impossible to me.
On the next year when I was thirteen, God led me to a youth fellowship in church. In the fellowship God use the life of a big brother to change me. I felt Jesus love through him and know that trust and depend on God is so happy and able. The big brother lead me to Jesus Christ, and I accept Jesus as my one and only savior and let him take control over my life. After I accept and invite Jesus into my life, I started to change. I started to change from a person which is filled with bitterness and hatred to a person who can completely forgive my enemy and even love people. From a person who wants revenge so hard that would even thought of killing to a person who answer God’s calling and resolve to become a pastor. From very emotional and extremely bad tempered to gentle and patience; from a person without joy and hope to a person filled with joy and hope.
Knowing Jesus is the best thing in my life, I long to share this blessing with everyone around me. After that I started to serve with passion in church and share gospel with my friends. Through serving and sharing gospel I experienced many God’s grace and His presence. I willingly give my life all in front of God for Him to use, I live only for God, my life is different because of this belief!
When I was five years old, I got sick. I got Kosaki. Kosaki is a very dangerous and scary disease, if serious it could cause death. At that time there is no medicine for Kosaki, and I’m very sick, my body is so weak and near death, it doesn’t look good at all. Even in such a situation that seems hopeless my mom still don’t give up, she prayed for me and asked God to heal. God listened to my mom’s prayers, and in a week’s time my sickness was gradually healed. After I got better, my mom saw from the news that many kid around four to five years old got sick because of Kosaki and died, not just a few but a few tens. At that time I’m a kid and I have no feeling, but now when my parents talked about it, I am very thankful because if it was not God’s mercy and healing, I would not have the chance to stand here and share with you my testimony.When I was twelve years old, because I didn’t study I was assigned to the last class in the school. That year was the darkest year of my life. In my class there was a few bad boy in class, and they like to bully me. For the whole year I am being bullied by them, they break my stuff like my pencil and water bottle, hit me, insult me, framed me, provoke me, belittle me, and played me. This was not just one day or two days, but for a whole year I felt scared and terrified, it was so painful that I nearly went crazy. And slowly every day, I began to feel hatred and vengeful in my heart, an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth, I quarrel and even fight with them. Every day the feeling add up, more and more, more and more until the thought of killing them appear in my heart. I even made up my mind that when I grew up I want to kill all of these people who bullies me. Every day I imagine in my heart how I would kill them, my heart is filled with bitterness and there was no peace and joy in my heart. It was so real that it filled my entire heart, to forgive them is impossible to me.On the next year when I was thirteen, God led me to a youth fellowship in church. In the fellowship God use the life of a big brother to change me. I felt Jesus love through him and know that trust and depend on God is so happy and able. The big brother lead me to Jesus Christ, and I accept Jesus as my one and only savior and let him take control over my life. After I accept and invite Jesus into my life, I started to change. I started to change from a person which is filled with bitterness and hatred to a person who can completely forgive my enemy and even love people. From a person who wants revenge so hard that would even thought of killing to a person who answer God’s calling and resolve to become a pastor. From very emotional and extremely bad tempered to gentle and patience; from a person without joy and hope to a person filled with joy and hope.Knowing Jesus is the best thing in my life, I long to share this blessing with everyone around me. After that I started to serve with passion in church and share gospel with my friends. Through serving and sharing gospel I experienced many God’s grace and His presence. I willingly give my life all in front of God for Him to use, I live only for God, my life is different because of this belief!
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Semasa saya berumur lima tahun, saya jatuh sakit. Saya mendapat Kosaki. Kosaki adalah penyakit yang sangat berbahaya dan menakutkan, jika serius ia boleh menyebabkan kematian. Pada masa itu tidak ada ubat untuk Kosaki, dan saya sangat sakit, badan saya begitu lemah dan hampir mati, ia tidak kelihatan baik pada semua. Walaupun dalam keadaan seperti itu yang seolah-olah tiada harapan ibu saya masih tidak berputus asa, dia berdoa untuk saya dan meminta Tuhan untuk sembuh. Allah mendengarkan doa ibu saya, dan dalam masa seminggu penyakit saya beransur-ansur sembuh. Selepas saya menjadi lebih baik, ibu saya melihat dari berita bahawa ramai kanak-kanak di sekitar berusia empat hingga lima tahun jatuh sakit kerana Kosaki dan meninggal dunia, bukan hanya beberapa tetapi beberapa puluhan. Pada masa itu saya seorang kanak-kanak dan saya tidak mempunyai perasaan, tetapi kini apabila ibu bapa saya bercakap mengenainya, saya amat berterima kasih kerana jika ia tidak belas kasihan dan penyembuhan Tuhan, saya tidak akan mempunyai peluang untuk berdiri di sini dan berkongsi dengan anda kesaksian saya. Apabila saya berumur dua belas tahun, kerana saya tidak belajar saya ditugaskan untuk kelas terakhir di sekolah. Tahun itu adalah tahun yang paling gelap dalam hidup saya. Dalam kelas saya ada seorang budak lelaki beberapa buruk di dalam kelas, dan mereka suka membuli saya. Bagi keseluruhan tahun Saya sedang dibuli oleh mereka, mereka memecahkan barangan saya seperti pensil saya dan botol air, memukul saya, menghina saya, dirangka saya, menimbulkan sakit hati, memperkecilkan saya, dan bermain saya. Ini bukan hanya satu hari atau dua hari, tetapi selama satu tahun saya merasa takut dan ketakutan, ia sungguh menyakitkan bahawa saya hampir pergi gila. Dan perlahan-lahan setiap hari, saya mula merasa benci dan dendam dalam hati saya, mata ganti mata, gigi ganti gigi, saya bergaduh dan juga melawan dengan mereka. Setiap hari perasaan menambah, lebih dan lebih, lebih dan lebih sehingga pemikiran membunuh mereka muncul dalam hati saya. Saya juga membuat fikiran saya bahawa apabila saya membesar saya mahu membunuh semua orang-orang yang membuli aku. Setiap hari saya bayangkan dalam hati saya bagaimana saya akan membunuh mereka, hati saya penuh dengan kepahitan dan tidak ada keamanan dan kegembiraan dalam hati saya. Ia begitu sebenar bahawa ia memenuhi seluruh hati saya, untuk memaafkan mereka adalah mustahil bagi saya. Pada tahun berikutnya ketika saya tiga belas, Allah membawa saya kepada satu persahabatan belia di gereja. Dalam persekutuan Tuhan menggunakan kehidupan seorang abang kepada perubahan saya. Saya berasa Yesus mengasihi Dia dan tahu amanah itu dan bergantung kepada Tuhan begitu gembira dan dapat. The abang membawa saya kepada Yesus Kristus, dan saya menerima Yesus sebagai satu-satunya penyelamat saya dan dapatlah dia mengambil kawalan ke atas kehidupan saya. Selepas saya menerima dan menjemput Yesus ke dalam hidup saya, saya mula berubah. Saya mula berubah daripada seseorang yang penuh dengan kepahitan dan kebencian kepada seseorang yang benar-benar boleh memaafkan musuh saya dan juga orang yang kasih sayang. Daripada seseorang yang mahu membalas dendam keras bahawa walaupun akan terfikir untuk membunuh kepada seseorang yang menjawab panggilan Tuhan dan keazaman untuk menjadi seorang pastor. Dari sangat emosi dan amat buruk marah dengan lemah lembut dan kesabaran; daripada seseorang tanpa kegembiraan dan harapan kepada orang yang penuh dengan kegembiraan dan harapan. Mengetahui Yesus adalah perkara yang terbaik dalam hidup saya, saya yang lama untuk berkongsi berkat ini dengan semua orang di sekeliling saya. Selepas itu saya mula berkhidmat dengan semangat di dalam gereja dan berkongsi injil dengan kawan-kawan saya. Melalui berkhidmat dan berkongsi Injil saya mengalami rahmat banyak Allah dan kehadiran-Nya. Saya rela memberikan hidup saya semua di hadapan Tuhan-Nya untuk digunakan, saya hanya hidup untuk Allah, hidup saya berbeza kerana kepercayaan ini!
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