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I believe we have a choice in
this world about how to tell sad stories.
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On the one hand,
you can sugarcoat it.
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The way they do in movies
and romance novels...
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where beautiful people
learn beautiful lessons...
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where nothing is too messed
up that can't be fixed...
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with an apology
and a Peter Gabriel song.
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I like that version as much
as the next girl does,
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believe me.
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It's just not the truth.
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This is the truth.
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Sorry.
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Late in the winter
of my 17th year...
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my mother decided
that I was depressed.
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She just eats like a bird,
she barely leaves the house.
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I am not depressed, Mom.
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She's reading the same
book over and over.
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She's depressed.
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I'm not depressed.
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The booklets and the websites
always list depression as
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a side effect of cancer.
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Depression's not
a side effect of cancer.
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It's a side effect of dying.
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Which is what was happening to me.
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I may switch you to Zoloft.
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Or Lexapro.
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And twice a day instead of once.
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- Why stop there?
- Hmm?
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Really, just keep them coming.
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I'm like the Keith Richards
of cancer kids.
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Have you been going to that
support group I suggested?
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Yeah, it's not my thing.
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Support groups can be a great way
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for you to connect
with people who are...
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Who are... What?
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on the same journey.
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"Journey"? Really?
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Give it a chance.
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Who knows, you might even
find it enlightening.
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All right.
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Are you guys ready?
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We are gathered here today
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literally in the heart of Jesus.
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We're here with J.C.
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Who wants to share their
story with the group?
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I'm Angel.
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I have acute myeloid leukemia.
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Sid. Acute lymphoblastic leukemia.
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Hi, I'm PJ. Um,
I have neuroblastoma.
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I'm Patrick.
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Testicular.
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I'll spare you the gory
details of Patrick's ball cancer.
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Basically, they found it
in his nuts...
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they cut most of it out, and he
almost died, but he didn't die.
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So now, here he is,
divorced, friendless...
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living on his parents' couch...
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exploiting his cancer-tastic
past in the heart of Jesus.
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Literally.
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To show us that one day,
if we're lucky...
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we could be just like him.
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Who's next?
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Hazel?
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Um...
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I'm Hazel.
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Uh, thyroid, originally...
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but now with quite the impressive
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satellite colony in my lungs.
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And how are you doing?
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Uh, you mean besides
the terminal cancer?
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All right, I guess.
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We're here for you, Hazel.
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Why don't I play another song?
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Christ is our friend
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And he'll be there till the end
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