shake my head, tears streaming down my cheeks. I nod my head in the direction of Soonyoung's shoes and he seems to understand immediately. Soonyoung falls asleep the same moment Seungcheol's tears start rolling down his face.Quietly, to not disturb him, we don't say a word as we watch him sleep. For the first time in my life, I realize how quickly someone in my life can fade. Him being the one to make me realize that makes my desire to protect him even stronger. I look at Soonyoung with passion in my eyes, I will not let him fade. Looking at Seungcheol, he has an unreadable expression as he watches Soonyoung.A cold wind sweeps over us and I lift Soonyoung gently into my arms, Seungcheol getting his shoes, and we make our way down to the couch in the dance studio. As we pass by other members, I could tell they were concerned. Seungcheol put a finger to his lips every time they tried to open their mouths. Although they didn't understand completely, they understood that Soonyoung was not to be distributed.I laid Soonyoung on the couch, in our practice room to perhaps give him some type of piece. I feel blessed that we don't have cameras following us everywhere like we had in our trainee days. Time passes, but my eyes never leave Soonyoung's face. I watch him have dreams, maybe nightmares, and time passes. By the time he wakes up, we are the only ones left. Seungcheol leaving to attend to the other member's curiosity.He looks at me so innocently confused when he awakes, that my heart clench for him. My motherly instincts kick in and I feel the urge to kiss him. I shake my head softly, dismissing that thought as he becomes more panicked realizing what had transpired. Well, now I know I will never let him go.