A friend of mine is a very successful pastor. Thousands flock to hear him preach. His church is a model for evangelism and discipleship. One day he made an astonishing statement. He said, “I don’t get any of my significance from my work at this church.” He went on to say his significance came from his relationship to Christ, his marriage, and his children. I’m not there yet. I suspect my friend’s theology is stronger than his experience. But that is the heart of it. It is true that God calls his pastors to wonderful and divine work. It is also true that we work in a very human environment. I still live with stereotypes, roles, and expectations. I am still filled with doubts and fears too. Often I don’t feel good about being a pastor. I want human affirmation and the respect of the community. Sometimes I don’t like being a pastor, especially when the abuse comes.